days off-

its my first two days off - you seem to understand that mommy needs sleep so after a morning eats, you play silently while i try to catch a few moments of rest. i feel so lucky to have you caring for me as i care for you. our day passes swiftly with bath times, book times, art projects and quick errands in the blazing heat. there are a few moments that stick out to me darling child- the way you race your little bike leaning forward hair blazing -- round, round round the coach you go. the way we dance together on the wood floor to music that varies from kanye west to the jungle book "I wanna be a man- man cub.."-- you shimmy and shake until we are panting on the floor in which you insist on sitting on me and "giddle giddle tickle" your smile voice chimes as you force your little fingers beneath my chin. we laugh, sweat dripping off our foreheads. Shawn of the Sheep was our evening movie - not much talking - yet the brayyinng of shawn set off our giggles. our favorite was 'shawn the farmer' i laughed and watched you cover your mouth with your hands as you laugh aloud. my mind wanders- i wish - wish we could be farmers together- we need a little space/ a place to call our own...it should happen in time. but it feels like soon is an eternity. we make a home of what we have, we are lucky indeed to have what we do - im dedicated to creating a little slice of heaven just for you ---a little soil to get our hands dirty in, maybe even a sheep someday. or a puppy just for you!